This story is from February 14, 2017

The ‘unattained’ love that liberated me

The spell of ‘unattained’ is always more dopey.
The ‘unattained’ love that liberated me
What happens when someone loves you like a dream and makes you feel beautiful even when you are let down by the whole world? What happens when you feel drawn to this special someone and want to grab more of this blissful feeling? Life moves on…to a new chapter!
Duh…what do you do now? Just take a deep breath and accept the truth - whatever happens, happens for good.
Life moves on at its own velocity and we have to abide. Anyway, the spell of ‘unattained’ is always more dopey.
I’m talking about a guy who played the role of an ideal lover, while I was busy chasing life with my husband. It may sound like just another ‘extra-marital’ affair but for me, it was about feeling happy. Yes, such a love can bring happiness too. He met me when I was trying to fix few worn out issues in my marriage. We met, we clicked, and we were swept off our feet by the imp. For me, it was an exciting journey of rediscovering my quirky self which I had left far behind after getting hitched. For him it was love. Love in its true sense – like a love we all read and make tall claims about.
He was hooked on to me and it gave me a kick to be that someone special again. The world became musical once again and all those romantic blushes felt like a warm winter morning. It was a magical feeling being with him because he weaved them all with his love. I couldn’t stand any woman in close proximity to him. But, he never expressed how he felt when I left to be with my husband and daughter every evening. My right on his life was almost equal to his parents' and I was loving every bit of it.
Three years passed but the ‘connect’ did not fade away. I tried to stop talking to him many times but after few days or months, I got back to him. He never demanded anything from me, he never ever complained and he never told me how hard it was for him to accept that his love (and the only love in his life) belonged to someone else. One day, unaware of the latest developments in his life, when I called him, he told me about this girl he had started feeling comfortable with. He said he still loved me but he ‘has to’ move on.

I wanted to chase him, be with him, grab it all but could not. Even though our souls remain connected, the irony is that we cannot stay together. This beautiful feeling of love that tickles me whenever I think of him, makes me realize that the greatest love is the one that remains unattained. I realised why dark secrets are so fascinating and intriguing because what is left unsaid says it all.
I feel liberated after this experience – as I see him go, as I see him chase his life. I guess which is why it is believed – love does not claim possession but it gives freedom. Maybe that is why greatest poets have written about love making you ‘free’ from the custody of worldly possessions.
It’s not about the book anyway, it is about the chapters that made that book.
- By Anonymous
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