Paul Kimmage: In Sean Kelly's world, the real dirty stuff started and ended with Lance Armstrong

Sean Kelly: ‘Well I think with Lance Armstrong, when he started out there was . . . as time went on there was a bit of doubt and that gathered momentum until the end’

Paul Kimmage

My syringe is prepared. As it's my first time it is decided that 7cc will be enough. Ten to fifteen is the average dose, but the real hard men often use double or treble this.

Amphetamines work strongly for about two to three hours, after which the effects diminish. The criterium will last just two hours, which means we can take them in the privacy of the hotel room before going out to the start. I roll back the sleeve on my jersey. No turning back now. The needle is slipped under the skin of my left shoulder. I'm charged.