Experiencing & Realizing God
Two days back during my early morning meditation, I requested God, the Shiv Baba to meet me during the day. I asked Him to make me realize & experience His presence in some way. I insisted that since He claims to be my best friend also, apart from all other relations, he must oblige, even if appears to be a whimsical demand.
I had hoped that He does not displease His ‘special children’ and I have always treated myself His special child. So I waited for Him and kept waiting. The time kept its normal speed and it was evening when I became sad and disappointed. With a disappointment writ large on my face, I went for evening meditation at about 6.30. Straight away I showed my annoyance to Him and acted as if I was not going to talk to Him.
He just laughed and said, “You are angry because I obeyed you?” I looked with a surprised gaze, “Did you? Are you joking?” “If you refuse to look at me, what can I do?” “Do you wish to say that I am a thankless person?” “Listen, and be calm. I tell you” And He went on:
“When in the morning your colleague came to your office and shook hands with you, you did not see me in the soft and affectionate touch of her hands. After a few minutes when the cleansing maid came to your office and you were standing near the stairs, she wished you in a very happy manner, “Dadaji, Om Shanti.” You did not see me in her laughter. I tried again, when you went to the Pantry for a cup of tea. This was your first visit to the Pantry in many months. On the way, in the lift you met the Pantry in-charge and asked whether there was milk in the pantry. He enthusiastically offered to make tea for you and with a smile thanked you for coming to the pantry. Did you not see me in his offer and smile?
Still I did not stop making attempts. After your lunch, when you were going back to your room for rest and did not have conveyance, a small car came by you and offered to drop you. The car was not going that way, but the driver went specially for you and you thanked him profusely. But he accepted your thanks with just a smile. Even then you did not see me. And now you are annoyed. Just tell me how could I come and meet you? I needed a medium and you did not remember that.”
As He said all this, I realized my folly and felt ashamed of myself. Am I really a thankless child of such a benevolent and loving Father? How could that be, and still I call myself a ‘special child’? O God, my True Friend, I am really sorry and promise to be alert in future. Thank you for being so considerate and so lovingly mindful of your children’s small and even whimsical demands.
– Ved Guliani
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